mmm? wuzzat?

Sitting on the bus grooving on this awesome lunch. On step 3 extremely short people. One of them looks like Hitler.
(!)
One of them looks like Hitler.

i promise ill stop whining, but allow me one more...

ugh looks like its either
a) say fuck everything and risk having my internet and phone canceled completely, and missing another chance to get financial aid sorted

or...

b) call out of work so i can get all this shit sorted during the day and maybe, just maybe get a night of sleep where im not having nightmares and waking up in sweats.

gee, wish someone in my family would actually get off their asses and help someone.

...and the thunder rattles the garden, shaking the dewdrops off the marigolds and the petals off the roses.

im in a rut, sort of, im barely hanging by a thread financially while im trying to decide what stuff i can sell and whom i can sell it to for textbook money because this prof wants the books on the first day and im quite broke paying the internet bill rather than my cell phone bill. currently, im about $250 short of getting what i need done and im pretty sure i couldnt scrounge that. i dont even know why im writing this, probably one of those "if i faked my death, heres why" type posts just bitching, dont mind me.

testing out blogger app

didja know somewhere in this pile of scrapped computers, dirty clothes, and other bits and bobs lies a notebook containing lists of things i hate? page after page of em, ranging from things that annoy the piss out of me to celebrities i wanna punch in the nuts to things people do, etc etc
i cant find the book, and its really eating away at me, so anyway, heres a few in no particular sequence:

-"myspace" /"fat chick"-angled photos (top-down or otherwise)

-people who abuse the word "epic"

-movies/ games about world war ii

-misshapen potato chips

-kevin james

-when people just ask questions when they call to
chitchat

-people who call to chitchat

This cold blustery wind blows across my face but chils me to the bone, taking me way back to that first late november night when we first hung out. Did you ever think after 4 years we'd not talk like this? that wed never be friends, but actually fall out not 2 weeks later?
I only remember now the way you smiled as we strolled around, huddling close together because neither of us had a proper coat.
as we giggled and traded stories and had conversations, zubtly picking your brain for christmas present ideas, imaaging your face when you saw it, and
never once thinking about myself. two weeks later, my intentions were crystal clear as we dug into each other, nearly coming to blows as we just bickered like children

I kind of miss you now, for the longest time i hated you, but i really do see now why you werent interested. even still, we could be friends if we werent so distant.
honestly, i think it would work out great. but those are unrealistic expectations, and im far too preoccupied to dwell on it.

oh weLL, i truly hope youre happy now. i only imagine that you cant be doing well, though. maybe you are, though. maybe youre thinking about how if i had kissed you goodnight under the glowing lights
of center city that night, if any of this would be different? would we be going strong, the envy of our best friends and having the time of our lives? would we have our own place, hanging out and having movie marathons and
intense gaming sessions together? would we be sitting cross legged on the couch, eating cereal and watching cartoons? i dont know, and i never will. ill say hi if i see ya round.

Song-a-day December/ happy new years!

Cheers y'all heeeeeeere weeeeeeeeee gooooooooooo!
01. Cut Chemist - [The Audience's Listening #10] Spoon
02. Misfits - [American Psycho #11] Crimson Ghost
03. Hans Zimmer - [Pirates Of The Caribbean: At World's End #01] Hoist The Colours
04. Kaiser Chiefs - [Yours Truly, Angry Mob #04] Highroyds
05. The Pillows - [Runners High #02] Instant Music
06. Flogging Molly - [Float #02] Paddy's Lament
07. DOKAKA - [Minna Daisuki Katamari Damacy Original Soundtrack #02] Katamari on the Rocks
08. 2MB - [Dance Dance Revolution] Healing Vision (Angelic mix)
09. Hulk Hogan & The Wrestling Boot Band - [Hulk Rules #01] Hulkster's In The House
10. Paul Oakenfold - [Bunkka #05] Zoo York
11. HIGH AND MIGHTY COLOR - [ROCK PIT #03] TOXIC
12. Slayer - [Hell Awaits #01] Hell Awaits
13. Blue Öyster Cult - [Spectres #10] Nosferatu
14. Gnarls Barkley - [St. Elsewhere #12] Necromancer
15. Rage Against The Machine - [The Battle Of Los Angeles #05] Sleep Now In The Fire
16. David Bowie - [Platinum Collection CD1 #08] Suffragette City
17. Eliza Carthy - [Rice #01] Blow the Winds/The Game of Draughts
18. Iron Maiden - [The Number Of The Beast #06] Run To The Hills
19. Robert Lopez and Jeff Marx - [Avenue Q (Original Broadway Cast Recording) #18] The Money Song
20. Gorillaz - [Demon Days #18] Happy Landfill
21. Dropkick Murphys - [The Warrior's Code #09] The Green Fields Of France
22. Audio Highs - [Basquash! Original Soundtrack #10] Get it Get it
23. Samuel Osborne Barber - Adagio For Strings
24. Twisted Sister - [A Twisted Christmas #02] Oh Come All Ye Faithful
25. Waitresses - [The Best Christmas Album In The World Ever CD1 #19] Christmas Wrapping
26. Daiki Kasho, Nick Moroishi - [F-zero Gx/Ax Original Soundtracks (Disc 1) #19] James Mccloud
27. Kosaka Riyu - Danzai no Hana ~Guilty Sky~
28. The Streets - [Everything Is Borrowed #06] On The Edge Of A Cliff
29. Deerhoof - [The Runners Four #10] You Can See
30. Cake - [Comfort Eagle #09] Love You Madly
31. Cibo Matto - [Stereo Type A #02] Spoon

Lol I bet Dick Cheney is plottin something evil. Maybe he's gonna punch a kitten :(